Graduation!

In this post, I talk about how excited I was about graduating Jr. High. 4 years later, I’m talking about how relieved I am that a little over 24 hours ago, I graduated High School.

Walking across the (rickety, mildly horrifying) stage extension in low, chunky heels because God forbid I catch a stiletto in the gap between the stage and its extension. I have great legs I’d love to keep them. and getting my diploma was the happiest I’ve been in years. I wish that was a dramatic exaggeration.

The “best” 4 years of my life came with a lot of struggles. I lost a lot of friends, and sadly, I had a majority of them for years, some since grade school. I said very few words to them at graduation, and I doubt I’ll say very many more in the future. I wasn’t in a good place mentally, either. I spent too many nights at my absolute worst, ugly crying on the bathroom floor at ungodly hours of the night, thinking of doing things to myself that I hope never come up as an option again. (That unintentionally sounds like the “edgy” teenage type…)

I made some really good memories. Going to dances, staying out late, sitting in a hot tub at 2:30 AM, trying not to ruin the hair and makeup your mom paid the salon to do. I did the play/musical every year, and I stayed in Band. I was also an honors graduate, keeping a 3.5 GPA every semester. I wore my medal for hours after the ceremony. I’m grateful for the memories, but I don’t miss anything about them.

High School was not a good time in my life, but I’m accepting of  the way it changed me. I don’t think High School should be the “best four years of your life”. It’s also nothing like the movies or TV shows try portraying it. I think it’s a time when you’re supposed to figure things out. I walked into High School a terrified 14 year old girl , and I walked out as a completely different 18 year old. (I’m glad I got to be that 14 year old for a while, though. You have to start somewhere) Am I a bit scared of the future? Absolutely, but I know that I can handle whatever tries to bring me down.

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Anybody up for a little group storytelling?

i have a LOT on my plate this summer, but I’m craving a fun, fluffy summer project!

Anyone wanna make a character for a webcomic?

All I know so far is it includes Leap and Pip, two royal kids who hang out together and solve mysteries/fight bad guys. Leap’s from the winter kingdom, Pip’s from the summery one, and they’re best friends! Also a recurring bad guy is Professor Doombringer, but haven’t drawn him yet cuz i’m currently finishing up a li’l project!

Totally open to there being other kingdoms/species of character/even having these dudes not be the main characters!

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funny coincidences!

I work at a Adobe and Tech help desk at USC, and we get some questions about wordpress sometimes. One girl came in with some URL issues, and I was trying to show her what a normal post permalink should look like and I was like oh god, what’s a wordpress site I could use?

dogs.wordpress.com

That was me, tryin’ my best.

I’m also trying to do some daily sketches! Idk if I should post them all here cuz that feels spammy, but I just like STOPPED drawing because of thesis panic. We just pitched today (Mine got approved!!) and it’s a relief to have the pressure off… but still, there’s a very long way to go.

So here’s day 1. Sorry world.

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Nostalgic

Today, something came over me to go check the Poptropica Help Blog chatroom. For what reason? I’m not sure myself, but I found my old middle school asylum dead, moved & hardly recognizable. I remember being so into WordPress, blogging, all things online and expressing myself through a QWERTY keyboard. But time really is crazy, and it scares me how easy it is for our brains to dispose what once was everything to us.

Since putting in my two weeks in the Poptropica WordPress universe under the logic of “I’m about to be in high school and I’m getting too old,” I’ve took up other ways of conveying a persona. Twitter became my favorite app, I started writing poetry and I even made a mixtape as a Soundcloud rapper. I made new online friends, as it was probably inevitable, and pushed my old interests to the back of my mind. I now like to go to the gym, run track, read, write (still), paint and vlog from time to time.

But now being a senior in high school with a semester left until I venture into adulthood, I’m nostalgic. I noticed more and more a decline of interest in drawing, online gaming, the internet, and everything else I occupied my time with in my tween years. It’s all apart of growth, sure, but I feel like once I left this behind, I left a part of me behind. A part of me that paved way for me right now. A part of me that right now I wish was still familiar. I have the same passion and creativity that manifests themselves in other forms, but I lack the affinity of what I had potential in — all because I was bored and impulsively decided that I was too old and it was time for me to change.

I could blame my fear of labels, being predictable and stagnant until veins pop out my neck, but that only proves my point that I did this for the potential of how others could view me instead of the potential of a new version of myself. I see there are authors in this blog that are now in college, I see Hijuyo is the only author I recognize over at PHB, and I see that my bio here has not been updated since I was 12. I’m now 17, going to be 18 in April.

I grew up online, and purposely left a gap that I feel is missing but is filled with real life experience and introspection. Instead of being up on chatrooms at 3 in the morning, I talk to myself and reflect (or tweet). And truly, I’ll never know how my teenage years would’ve panned out had I stayed in this universe. I sacrificed growing and bartering information with those my age through the magic of the internet to being the only one surrounded by the stubborn. It wasn’t worth it, but I feel that I said enough and there is nothing I can do to change time and it’s honestly too late.

In short, I’m thankful for this community for, not being apart, but for BEING my tweenage years when I was asocial, chubby and, regretfully, had a liking for One Direction. I’m not MonkeyTacoz anymore, and the real world sucks. Being on the laptop all day is much, much better. It’s nice to see authors keeping this blog alive. I love to see growth and people my age being creative and unapologetically themselves (one thing I wish I was consistent at). Not everyone in the world will or can understand us, so don’t learn to hate what you love to do. Happy new years, everyone. 🙂

-MT

Overconfidence vs. Incompetence

Hey WTR,

Here’s a little word of advice:

Don’t overestimate your own technical skill, especially when dealing with complicated components of a computer.

Earlier this week I decided I wanted to swap out the hard drive in my computer for a larger one I had in my laptop. Sounds simple, right? Normally the process of swapping out a hard drive involves backing it up, cleaning it out, then simply bringing in the new drive. My computer, however, had its own idea of what that process should be.

As I started rummaging through the drive to try to find what was worth keeping, I found a rather peculiar folder labelled “Music.” However, when I tried to open it, a big error message popped up.

ACCESS DENIED!”

That was odd. I was the only administrator on my computer, so there was nothing that should have been restricted from my view… right? I generally consider myself technologically adept, so as my brain whirred trying to comprehend this enigma, an idea happened upon me. I pulled up the command prompt and tried to delete the files from there.

ACCESS DENIED.”

So the system wasn’t allowing itself to delete these mystery files. At this point I was hooked. Instead of my brain thinking, “Should I continue?” my brain was set on “How can I beat this?” I was ready for a challenge. I started the process of moving everything but these files off of my hard drive. As the slowly moving progress bar inched forward, I was plotting my next move. I could not let my hard drive be the victor in this scenario. And maybe my plan was drastic. BUT IT WOULD BE WORTH IT!

I completely wiped my hard drive just to delete what I later found to be a few Spotify files. Luckily for me there was nothing important I hadn’t already backed up, but it was a huge inconvenience nevertheless.

If only this were the only problem…

So I thought I was ready to replace the drive. I pulled up Windows’ handy dandy Drive Manager, and started deleting all the partitions on this particular drive. Lo and behold, there appeared unto me a partition that could not be deleted. So I looked, and verily, I beheld that this particular partition was reserved for use by the Windows system. But I wasn’t ready to give up yet. So I pulled up the trusty command prompt once again, and tried OVER AND OVER using all the method I knew to get rid of this particular partition.

So I decided on an alternative plan of action. I opened up my computer (Did I mention that I built this computer) and unplugged the hard drive. I pushed the power button and…

Nothing.

My computer refused to start unless this drive was installed and active. So I installed a program that could actually look at hidden files that only the system recognize, and this gave me answers. Installed on my drive was the Windows Bootloader- the component of the system that tells the computer how to start. So I started researching how to move the Windows Bootloader to the actual boot drive, and it appeared to be a fairly simple process. I installed the program to do so, ran it, then pulled out my hard drive, and the computer still refused to boot. Even after I plugged the drive back in it still stubbornly refused to cooperate.

So here I am now, typing up this post while my computer copies the contents of the boot drive to an external hard drive. I’m running Linux off of a flash drive, and while that’s a cool concept, I need to be actually getting things done right now.

So that’s pretty much my entire story. TOPIC SWITCH! Remember how I said I was going to try to post once a week for the rest of the school year? No? Well, I did. Just in case you were wondering. And even though I’ve already failed so far, I plan on keeping up with it to the best of my ability.

That is all.

Big Project Update

Quick update on the film I’ve been working on for like ever now.

The Pursuit of Grace

Hey everyone!

It’s been a long time since I’ve talked about the current state of the Pursuit of Grace, and a lot has changed since the last post.

First of all, the most important news.

We didn’t win the BJU film competition.

And yes, I’m pretty disappointed with the results. It’s easy to become so very focused on winning the competition; my focus needs to be on why I’m even making this film- I want to glorify God in what I do. This is just a way to prove that I actually believe that.

Now the important question-

Where’s the film?

I’m going to give the famous cop-out answer- it’s coming when it’s done.

And I know that I submitted a version to the competition already. However, I got some very valuable feedback from the judges of the competition. I’m trying to make the Director’s Cut the very best it…

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